10-12-09

What do you do when the only person you trust for honest help is the one you think you REALLY love? When in your dreams the one who you’re meant to be with is always either your best friend, or the least likely for even a potential date, where do you turn? Too scared to tell anyone the entire story, always leaving out pieces of the puzzle for fear someone might discover the deeper true meaning to it all that you can’t figure out yourself. Too confused about it all and just wanting things to be simple, but yet still striving to convince yourself that it’ll happen. Praying someone would put all the pieces together and see the big picture of the puzzle, but terrified of what they’ll think of you then…. But you never cared what anyone thought before, why now? Perhaps because the answer you’re striving for depends on the love and care of another human being, and you’re freaking out that they won’t love you the same or will want you to change.